Thursday, July 29, 2010

It's Dark in Here...


Today was just one of those days in which it was better just to sleep through. Sincerely, I'm tired- I don't want this to sound like a downer entry but I can't really help it. I really wish life would lend me a flashlight because, it's just so dark in here. I feel so lost right now; as if there were nowhere to run to, I know I have nowhere to run to.
Laying here sick with a huge cold, not being able to sing, being behind on the back to school collection, having a dead car, being jobless and a billion other things are rotting my mind. I just think no matter how hard I try, no matter how much I swim, I always end up drowning. I always end up trapped in a dark room finding a way out.
And it's just too dark in here...
~excerpts of my personal diary


14 comments:

  1. But even though it's dark in here, there's always light at the end of the tunnel. High five fellow jobless person :) Just do what I do, have a good cry, then get up and carry on, it's always worth it in the end.

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  2. Aww, just keep your head up and soon, with your talent, everything will all work out. All of your blog readers support you, including me. Never give up, and there will be a sunny day around the corner (:


    xo

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  3. I recently was in a dark tunnel. Cheerleading-which was my life- was taken away from me when I didn't make varsity (try outs were beyond biased and rigged) and then I had to give up Choir for my class schedule this upcoming year. My two performing outlets (and performing is my LIFE. That's the only time I'm happiest) were snatched away from me. But I ALWAYS told myself if those things were taken away from something bigger and BETTER is going to come out of it. Just know Sophie that something bigger and better is going to come for you and hopefully very soon! :)

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  4. Sometimes it's just gotta be a bad day, don't apologize for it. Embrace whatever is bringing you down and then let it go. It can only get better.

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  5. You'll get out of it. If you think positively, everything will happen the way it's supposed to. Did you read The Secret?

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  6. cheer up things will brighten :)

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  7. I'm so sorry to hear that! Don't give up. We all have our bad days... I had a horrible one a few days ago, kind of like yours. The good thing is that there are good days, and better days, and awesome days to look forward to.

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  8. I so appreciate you sharing your story with us. It's not easy to do, but it just shows that we're all human and we go through hard times.

    Things will get better for you, I promise. You are talented and very bright. Just let your own light shine and happiness will find you again. Keep smiling :)

    XOX
    Amanda

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  9. I hope your days get brighter! Think positive when you feel up to it. It always helps me get through my dark days.

    -Nicole
    www.craftmysoul.blogspot.com

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  10. I hope you can get some light into your day. Everyone has a shitty day. :) Get some delicious ice cream and watch shows in your cozy bed. <33 feel happier soon!

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  11. keep your chin up! things can only get better if you want them to. keep pushing forward and try to surround yourself with people and things you love.

    xo

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  12. No sophie! this is not you! Cheer up chica! You are beautiful smart and things will surely brighten any day now! OK! kEEP you head up girl!!

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  13. sh*t happens. . . life is cruel! but in the end, all these adversities will make you stronger, i promise! :) everything happens for reason, so keep your head high & don't let anything get you down, sweetie ♥ you're probably not likely to listen to me, because i'm fourteen, but just remember, 'everything's going to be okay in the end; if it's not okay, then it's not the end' take care &hearts'

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  14. "It may be years until the day my dreams will match up with my pay..." I love that lyric from Feist; really puts things into perspective, doesn't it? It sounds like you've got recession-depression, which I get wicked-badly from time to time (last night was one of those episodes; I just curled up with a magazine and fell asleep). Stick it out, keep being creative and investing in the things you love, and eventually you will get somewhere... I know how frustrating it is, in the meantime. I've been out of college for three years and have worked a lot of crappy jobs, still holding out for my "dream job" and am considering going back for a master's while I sort it all. So keep working hard, be persistant, it WILL pay off. You're so talented, you've definitely got a creative, enriching future ahead of you. And also, keep singing! I do, and whenever I play music I immediately feel better. <3

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